Wow, its been awhile.. really a while. took me awhile to built a confident again to update my blog again. Its been very lazy to do so as my age growing up.

Well, i am good.. been travel around in Malaysia, SEA in these 2 years (2012 and 2013). I gave up my corporate job in MyDEAL.com.my and rest at home.

What did I do while i am at home? I can tell you now that i sit at home, looking at my parents and cook. Believe it! I am utilising my holiday with my parents. Why? I worked day and night everyday. In fact, I do not really meet my parents at home. Morning, they went for Tai Chi and I went to work. Night, I came home and parents already in their dreamland.
Barely know nothing about their daily routine! Other than I am over-stressed at work, parents are one of the reason. Therefore, I decided to resigned.
I am happy. Fullfilled..
It is not easy being *in-between-job*. I got into mild depression though. Everything that i do without passionate. Even though i wake up every morning without thinking of 'oh man, do i need to work?

That leads me to have a thought that .. oh Hui Wen, why not go on a diet plan since you are not working? its time for you to rebuild your image! to build a new you!

I gotta share some of my experience of how to lose weight in a healthy way. At the mean time, still midst of compiling my pictures.

Labels: personal emo-ness

Nothing much happen in August..

But, I don't know myself anymore..I cant control myself to think all about the bad things happening to me..

Nothing much but, ups and downs...Perhaps, couch surfing thingy?
Been really active...Joined almost all of the gatherings in town..

Including with parties, one day trip....makan sessions, farewell parties..Makes me feel happy but somehow burden inside me...

It is only temporary making me feel am active or a temporary fulfilling my desire?
This is my passion to know the travels all around the world and I seriously enjoy talking to them...to know their travel experiences such as something happening around them, streets' stories, saving money, jobs, travel with super low budget, round trip, the way of saving money and take land transport. etc

In fact, am not happy at all...I feel empty, very lost.

Travellers come n go...are they my so called friends? even CS KL-lites..Apparently, in my phone call list now...most of them from CS..they called me for mamak session, talking time,and I still very keen to see them because for the 1st time ever all of able to click very well! I thought they were my close friends. How do I categorise them?

Somehow, most of them call me out of CS purpose which this means...we are real life friends...

so whats wrong with me?

am still looking for the god damn answers..

Labels: couch surfing, personal emo-ness

Woo hooo...

Nothing much happen this month.

Other than BKK, shoppping...New Job, new future...

TTS, HJ called me for celebration (oh Well) so for the sake of having party...so why not...


Me n HJ



this is me n my best fren Pat. the chinese guy, believe me

Labels: couch surfing, party, personal emo-ness

Some of u might not sure how bad was my situation.

I know, its only a week from the day I lost my stupid job which wont be the end of day..

Loads of u were super worried about me, thanks for concern

Some of u, called me everyday to check how I am...how sweet

Some of u, only give me basic advise like...Dont worry, plenty of jobs out there...u only lost ur job in a week time..What r u worried about?

Well, u r noobs...Dont u ever think of the future plans? as in finance?...u may jobless for 3 months!!!...these all my burdens!!!...so u know what i worried now?

Advise is a very easy thing...If i were u, i will simply advise too
Because u r not in ppl's shoe...how u know the feelings?


But some western ppl said that, lost ur job u know actually is a blessing to u? U can do lots of things that u plan while u r not free..

well thats very true.

But, sorry guys..I still depressed..no mood to travel that time..I worried the sky will drop

Labels: personal emo-ness

ewww this is bad news for me.

I lost my job...


I was so bloody depressed .

Some said, its blessings, u need to rest and do whatever u want that u plan before. Now u have plenty of time babe.

Oh yeah, I have time!!

in fact, still depressed

Labels: personal emo-ness

very stressed not because of work over load.

Because the ppl in office which is driving u crazy

In fact, they're all psycho ppl to the max, as in always try to speculate what u've say. and to backstab u like nobody business.

therefore, the finance department itself giving u a serious pressure or even with a strong word WARN u not to always communicate with other department otherwise..POLITIC everywhere

well, personally, I still in love with one boss system..not a big organization....

See, ppl are evil

Labels: personal emo-ness

Seriously, I miss my best chi mui. We used to hang around almost everyweek..

Well, i understand that he is busy for the 1st half year..

Okie, forget about him
I was too stressed in my job now..Everything under the manager control which driving me crazy.

I was thinking of resign. Apparently u guys must be thinking i try not to face the immediate problem.

But, I wanna stay. to challenge it. even no life at all

My schedule now disorder n everyday the same routine!!

Keep in up hui wen i know u can do it..

Labels: personal emo-ness

Yes, It was so good to get out from that office..

Actually, It wasnt that bad when I newly joined which the boss, directors are absolutely best..and treat us like appreciation. As a medium size business firm can be consider reasonable. (salary)


Frankly speaking, I love the enviroment over there..Just like a big family,no politics..doing own portfolio...handling for own client..No backstab and no bossy manager nor senior.

Well, all sort if resources that I able to use such as like..law book, MASB?...Tax ruling and Audit rules while my boss were stress on Tax ruling and public ruling...
Well, abdolutely think this is a very good company.

After about 3 months, closer to the collegues who were the same generation.

We all fly to Pulau Lang tengah..for a busy holidays.

I was all good..I enjoyed it, as in like hmmm snorkeling?..Thanks to Caleb& Debbie and Joshua (aka Eugene Yong). As well as, this was how i know D, J and whoever..I tot that i find my true frens ( or better still, a close collegues, so that easy to deal when all back to realistic life)

But,

This all became a nightmare after a while.. it was not as good as my expectations.

well, this was a normal bitch will do..

I got boycott during company trip to Vietnam. suck right. Well....


Long story.. I hate them... In fact, I always thought that woo WOW..I got a life experiance, i know how to handle a bad situation...But, my bad to ommited something very important....and as a human would always remind...Pls be evil for a good reason... Cannot be too naive...Ppl are evil all the time...if u dun take step to hurt them...they will do the same thing to u or even...deeper.

So for this experiance, my attitude totally change.. I sweared to my Lord...I will nvr forgive them, no communication only rules and permission.

long story..

one of them dealing with me...and i tried to not to give them a fast info...while i keep delaying..


keep the story short..till now...i never contact one of them..Never trust ppl easily....

Labels: personal emo-ness

Aww, my best girl fren is coming home soon!!!


hehe


Cant wait to hug her again!! and she joing us for VBS!!!! aww how sweet...

so ...pls leave some best time free time for me...gotta bring u to..Melaka, Penang!!!!..n i wanna go..cameron highland.is that alright?


Muahs!

Labels: church, personal emo-ness

is so scary,,!! ~

Peeps, i m clearing my credit card..I spent till over my a month salary...

I got no more money to pay my petrol, cant afford!! so i use credit card...at the end of the month...i cant pay....

In fact, all accumulated ...till now...BOMB!!..3 of credit cards..all BAO!

Clearing clearing...at least half all settle..



I am absolutely POOR...

dun ask me to donate...


Recently, I saw...confession of a shopaholic...sounds like me!!!!!....but if compare with that girl...M better, at least, i didnt buy branded stuff ( got la, but little)..i bought lot of things... too much..

Her debts enuf to buy a BU house...while mine...maybe 2nd hand Kancil only...


Conclusion

Credit card is scary.I already freeze one..hehe

good idea isnt it?

Labels: personal emo-ness

今天的我不知干嘛的。。

心情糟透。。

会不会想念他？本人也不清楚。。我就想静静的一个人。。上上网，看看新的电视剧。。caston的blog，听听celine dion 的歌，看看背包travel书。

还蛮不错的。。 每一天都在幻想可以搬出去住。。

我说啊，小女生真多烦恼。。白发也长得蛮多。。。

工作上好像不太顺。。。 太多新的东西了。也蛮多要记的。。我也蛮散忘。。怎么办呀。。。

好想到外面走走。。。去新加坡找caston？

可以叫他带我走走，散散心。。。

Labels: personal emo-ness

We need to get a very good clear mind to choose a right friends

Which he or she can help u or I am able to help as well. I think this is rather a very mean social life.

In fact, the ppl around are too blur with their own life and extremely not clear in mind to make such a simple decision. Therefore, am too frustrated to make friends like this.

If, when the time they need to do some serious and deep thought, all failed. Which i already scold her badly, even i lose some small amount of my business.

What is this world going on?..whether they are kind of blur or excuse my word..stupid? too much theory less practical...Make me feel, too naive and not rational.

Man

Well, recently i found out some old photos of me...Aww, so pretty but now, my face look like arggg awkward. Something has make obvious clear. Diet and toning. eat less of course.

Labels: personal emo-ness

Being like somebody else which no hope on each other is such a pain. But i still fall on him...bigger wtf

Labels: personal emo-ness

Celebrated my bday in starbucks..I miss her now

Sigh..at airport!

I always keep u in my prayer!

Hmm, she is flying off tonight!

Aww..i miss her soo soo much

Labels: personal emo-ness

Oh man, as the title above.. I got some trouble in this.

I applied 5 days leave in the peak period (slap myself for that) to Chiang Mai with my precious.

With this action, I initially boomed my boss's nerves. Follow me?
We talked about this god damn issues in 3 hours. Sounds like debating!! I got my reason and so u r.

The boss insisted with his view that i took so much OT becos of my annual leave for the following week.
Of cos, the cases that i handle where did not really related to my leave next week...it was all due in 30 of June!!!! Listen?...all my cases due on the god damn 30 June!! I OT doesnt touch with my leave!!...
Why are ur cases take so long time to finalised?

Well, another issue again.

I told u, the previous senior didnt do her part where she confirmed that the sole prop account no need to be done becos all transfer to the Sdn Bhd.

Sigh,

Before lunch time..The Director confronted me about the leave issued.
She cried... Well, I dunno what did she wanna show me. But not really get my nerves worried.

So, the boss approved with silly condition. My all OT not allow to claim!!!...

And this is 3rd issued. we 3 seated in The Boss's room to discussed about the issue calmly. Good?

Me and boss actually in a very good relationship.. But till this issued appeared...Of cos..it will be effected with the boss and staff relationship.

anyway..I was totally depressed. Cant eat, sleep nor drink.

LUckily, my senior who is good enough to talk with me....Even she bring me to Nando opposite the office to had a very good lunch!!

Thank u. He approved the leave.

Labels: personal emo-ness

Kai Yuuen, inform that she is going to Melb for something called student exchange in Monash Uni..

So we had very wonderful dinner with her in The curve...

Photo shooting and all..well sorry i meant for myself..i gotta go now...will be continue

Labels: personal emo-ness

I admit that was a little of freak out today in office..

Something was really boom my nerve...

freaakie stress today which i do not know the reason why.

My sole prop havent finish and I cant really find out the solution!!! and it so rushing!

Aww man...i cant believe that I couldnt control myself.

Nvm

Last night, I went out with my baby sherrie!!!

Sooooo bloody long didnt see her!!!.....Miss her lah!!!..I fetch her to church for pick up Kai's laundry basket.
On the way, shared her happening thought and the event in church.

The PArent's carnival...

There is a mission conference will be held in our church... The speaker is Uncle Chin Aik..
I am actually quite looking for it. To let me know more what is the purpose for doing mission in some poor province..Where we as normal human didnt know where is it..

I gotta find out what is the actual meaning for mission!

we went to Tesco and bought some snacks for my bloody Overtime.. for her, some grocerries...i cant imagine the guys live without Sherrie..how would it be...No hot water, nor tissue paper.

hehe...So baby Sherrie got to do it.. ngek ngek!!

After that, supper at Nasi kandar shop beside Tesco..

I got Tosai masara.. too filling hmm....

she got Banana roti with Condense MILK!!!....ahaa new way of mix it...

actually do really DELICIOUS!!!!

Labels: personal emo-ness

Sigh, the same old style of blogging...maybe too busy till no life for me to relax already.
I shud enjoy myself immediately right after peak period..Hehe, I think i am!!. sounds good?

Going to Chiang Mai, Thailand in coming week!!!!..and i feel worse spontaneously...the reason is I need to clear all my case before i fly! more overtime !!..awww

I skip my care group last week!!

Recently, there is a guy who is studying in Perth now..I feel a little bit confused..The way he treat me u know..
Even i got some minor argument, but he did apologies at the end of the day with sincere way..said that i am not deserve it.(somehow so sweet)..He try to comfort me whenever he could. Make sure that I am okay always...

and we promise each other that we give more time to know each other.

we discuss variety of topics..cooking, recipe, sexual, the place to go, or eat..

he is fun by the way
I like him,But till i met the Korean..My story start to change...He accidentally walked of from my life..
But, he seems that walking into my group again!..^^gives a a number of promise..(not that kind of u r thinking) Just a normal..Said that, i have a plenty of time to accompanied me,,as much as i want... and wont left me behind again, i promise this and that...

That make me confused...

In fact, I always compare a fren with him. the result is that, a guy wont talk with u like this.

so what is he gotta to hint?...

I think i will stay the way we are now..

I recently crave for Tony Roma's and some good food.

Love to eat..

and SHopping..I die for G2000!!

Labels: personal emo-ness

Due to tax resubmitting..I need to have Overtime for the time being. and i am extremely exhausted

The reason why, over 9pm, able to claim for food allowance..so all the accountant stay back till 11pm...so do I... Slap myself that i am accountant too!..But what to do, the calculation is always in my head...
Had my library ministry in my church,topic talked about from head to toe. the kids are satisfied

About, skeleton..The bones knowledge,the neuron system..Like when we touched the hot kettle, how we react for that. I told them that, the nervs will send a msg to the brain, and the brain will shout!!..HOT CAUTION DONT TOUCH !!!!the signal will send it back to our hand..HAhaaaa

The kids nowadays are quite clever, they knew everything that i just told them..wink.

so we did a PASTA skeleton,how shocking is that huh...

the kids are enjoyed

Hui Wen is satisfied

Labels: personal emo-ness